Boy Drama...😬 (UPDATE #3)

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oh goodness... It sounds like you have had quite the eventful day... I have experienced this alot so I can very much relate to you here! 

If you need to, you can always PM me if you want to talk about it!

@TallOak, thanks!  I'll definitely PM you if I feel I need to 🙂

If you ever need someone to rant to I'm here! I could give the little bit of advice that I do know :) 

@CrescentCreekStables, I'll come to you if I need to, thanks!  :)

Big oof. Hope everything works out for you!

@PhantomDark, I hope so too!

Wow, boys. I have always been picked on and bullied due to my love and obession with horses. It's always been mainly the boys, usually two or three who did the most which ever school I went to. (I've been to like 4) Thankfully it's mainly just two boys here at this school that pick on me the most. The other week one moved, so only one to go. I will admit, I kinda like the attention as I'm not popular. But sometimes during lunch, the boy who is still there will come up and touch my back. Then, my friends would say, "Go get your boyfreind!". They always say I blush and that I like him, and that I should get his number. I've always said, "If I wanted his number, I would of asked for it already." My entire life I've had the nickname: HorseGirl. I'm fine with it, but everyone says it like it's a bad thing, but it clearly isn't. Sometimes I walk in the hallways and some of the boys will go "neigh". It's kinda funny, but I kinda like the attention. I don't know, but maybe that one boy likes me. I don't know. But for thing, I have never had a crush or fallen in love, or even been with a boy in my entire life. Even my brother says that I "act" different around his friends which are girls and our neighbors which are 2 boys. Even earlier when one of the boys was over my younger brother said that I like him, and I try to show off. Clearly I don't. 

So yeah I kinda get how you feel lol Hopefully things will sort out!

@horsegirl, Oof, you seem like you have your own version of some boy drama lol.  But hopefully it works out for the both of us because I'm sure you're ready for it all to end just as well as I am.

Oh yeah totally. lol

Boys.......... *eye roll*

They can be amazing, but other times can be a pain in the butt. Just stay strong, true to yourself, and the right guy will eventually come along. :) I'm 30 and still waiting for someone who can handle me. 

@Feather, I will definitely agree with the fact that boys can be a pain in the butt lol.  But thanks for the motivation. :)  I think this should all be over soon to be honest; I talked to Emma the other day when I played an April Fools joke on her and she was getting ready to head to Florida for Spring Break (and she seemed really cheery and happy).

     Sunday, April 4, I was able to use my grandmother’s phone to text Kylie and ask her for Landen’s number so I could text him since he still hadn’t emailed me.  After a little while, we started texting back and forth and he kept calling me all these sweet little names like “cutie,” “beautiful,” “baby,” etc.  On Monday, Kylie and I had plans to get together so she got to come over to my grandmother's house to stay the night with me for a couple days.  I gave her her first little riding lesson on Cricket and we rode four-wheelers over the Landen’s house for the very first time to meet him in person!
     He came outside and he kept teasing us and muttering random phrases under his breath until Kylie and I had to leave and he texted me afterwards saying that he was going to kiss me when we were over there but he thought about it too late.  So we planned out another time to hang out over at his house where we then sat around at a picnic table and talked about just random stuff.  After a little while sitting around talking, Landen got up and he kept teasing us like he was going to throw a stick at his… until he actually did throw one---don’t worry, we were just playing around.  I threw a stick back at him and he walked up to me with his arm outstretched like he was going to put his arms around my shoulders.  Instead, he said, “Tag, you’re it!” and ran away from me.  Keep in mind that Landen plays football so he runs pretty fast---just a hare faster than I do and I almost caught him until he swerved away and I went tumbling forward and fell.
     We jumped on the trampoline and laid around talking about random stuff again until we had to leave because it was getting late.  The next couple of days, Kylie and I rode four-wheelers to Landen’s place every night until Kylie had to go back home on Wednesday.  What I didn’t know Monday night was that Landen had secretly asked Kylie if she would become his girlfriend!  I didn’t find that out until Tuesday night/Wednesday morning.
     Tuesday, Landen’s other friend, Jeremiah, came over to his house to spend the night a couple of nights and Kylie and I went to hang out again of course with them both.  This time, we all walked around the entire property where we met Landen’s horses, cattle, etc.  The entire time we were walking though, Landen and Kylie held hands and walked beside each other while Landen and Jerimiah talked the entire time, practically leaving me out of everything.
     Wednesday, Kylie and I had to work cleaning out an old house on our property and the boys found out that we had to work on it, so they offered to come by and help out.  At the same time, they had gotten into some stuff they shouldn’t have and we told them off; told them they shouldn’t come.  After all of the work was completed, we went over to Landen’s once again just for about an hour before Kylie had to go home and that time we all just hung out on the trampoline.
     After Kylie had gone home, I told Landen that she had left and he asked me if I liked him because he had noticed I was kind of jealous from when we were hanging out---every time we were together.  I told him that I was a little jealous because I was practically left out of everything and one day he was falling head over heels for me and the next he was dating my best friend!  I tried to change the subject a few times and he kept on bringing up the jealousy thing.  I asked him if we could just forget that and he said “no” because he wanted to make sure he got past, with me, the realization that he had messed up and he was really sorry, saying that it “should’ve been me he was hugging, cuddling, holding hands with, etc.”  I told him that I knew that and I wished those things had all come true but they hadn’t and I wasn’t going to ruin his and Kylie’s relationship just for the benefit of me being with Landen.  So I wished them the best and we told each other that we loved each other as friends.
     The next morning, he texted me and told me he had a question about buying a truck and then he completely changed the subject and asked me why I liked him, so I told him why I liked him.  I brought up having quite a lot in common and he asked me what I thought we had in common, so I once again gave him my honest answer.  Later on that day, we were talking about hanging out and he proposed we hang out because he felt bad… about how he left me out.  I told him that I had moved on and he said, “no, I know that hurt you.”  We decided to hang out to fish and he asked me if I wanted to cuddle.  I declined and said that I wasn’t going to cuddle him because he was dating Kylie at the moment.  After I declined, he told me that he was gonna screw up his entire relationship with Kylie and I kept telling him not to do that.
We were fishing and he still kept asking me if we could cuddle and I kept declining.  What made it worse was his fishing line got tangled (it was an open reel) and he couldn’t get it untangled, so he got frustrated altogether and walked off.  I told him I was going home too since we were both kind of annoyed at each other.
     I apologized for making him mad if I did but I wasn’t going to take advantage of Kylie not being with us in person so I can be with him.  He said that he was having a hard time choosing between Kylie and I because he liked both of us, so I told him to look at what he and Kylie could have as a couple and what he and I could have as a couple so he could choose.  He chose her… but said that he wanted me.
     Friday, we planned to hang out (but ended up not doing so) and he said he wanted to cuddle again.  I said no because my little brother was going to have to come with me too.  I got really tired of him asking me that question so many times that I gave in---I said I would allow him to put his arm around me and maybe even hold my hand, but that was it.  When we had to cancel he confronted me for liking him because “everyday I wanted to hang out.”  I told him that I only wanted to hang out because I was bored and had nothing else to do… and I only liked him as a friend.  He said that he could tell when a girl liked him and that it was “all his fault” that he pushed things with Kylie too fast and never got to be with me beforehand.  I told him that he should just control his emotions and find something to take his mind off everything, but he told me in response that he normally doesn’t do anything to “take his mind off stuff” but cries about it instead.
     Today (Saturday), I proposed a game of Questions Only where you ask someone a question, they answer that question, then ask you a question, and you keep doing that over and over until you want to end it.  We were playing today and one of Landen’s questions for me was “why do you like me?”---the same question he’s already asked me before.  So I literally went back to our previous texts and copied and pasted the same thing I had told him before to answer that question.  After a few more questions, we decided to stop because he couldn’t think of any other questions for me haha.
     A couple days back, though, I was telling Kylie about everything (and I mean everything) and we began talking about how he shouldn’t make titles for the girls he likes so he can be with different girls without them being jealous because of him “cheating on them.”  And I know it may seem off or wrong, but it just makes a lot more sense for a guy that normally gets attracted to several girls at a time if you know what I mean…
     Again, wish me luck with everything so far!  I’ll be updating more on this same thread line of posts and if you even got to the end of this… well, good for you!

Well clearly if he keeps on asking the same questions, he likes you. If he won't stop asking those questions, he should be with you. Hope everything works out!

@horsegirl, I would really like to be with him, but he's with my best friend right now and I don't want to ruin their relationship.  He did say though that if they ever broke up, we could get together so I'm going to be hopeful until anything changes.